Your throat will close up when you try to swallow your feelings not expressing your emotions is the most detrimental thing a person can do to themselves it literally places you into a self made prison. Ask yourself what and who you are afraid of ? Then ask yourself if these things matter ? What is more important than you saying your feelings? Our loved one's who are crossed over care and want to us honor our truth above and beyond. Our loved ones in spirit want us to challenge life like they never could. So please say what you need to say.